Sunday, January 28, 2007

My First love My Teacher

I still remember those days when I was in six standards. That was very tender age in all ways and as a child; I was not much grown emotionally at that stage. I was not very clear about love and sex. I had never experienced love for any girl before. All the girls in my class were same for me as boys. There was no restriction on sitting with them. We play with them and sometimes even touches them also. However never any feeling of love or sex came in my mind.

Everything was going smoothly, one day a beautiful English teacher came to our class. She was our new English teacher. This was her first assignment. She had recently passed her masters in English. She was approximately 22-23 years old. Her height was average. She was a clear example of how a beautiful and adult woman should look like. Her every body part was in a mature state of adulthood. This was my first experience of seeing a so beautiful woman. I could clearly see a huge difference between her and the girls of my class.

She started taking our class. I first time realized in my life some kind of attraction for a girl. A strange feeling started taking over me. Whenever I saw her then I wanted to see her even more. Dreams of her started coming into my mind. I started attending her class and doing work given by her more seriously. I wanted to come in her favorites list. I felt bad when some male teacher talks to her. Day by day my madness for her started growing. I wanted to remain more and more with her.

I started dreaming of marrying her. These were my true feeling first time for some one and some kind of sexual attraction was also present in it. I had the first time realized the difference between a man and woman. I wanted to touch her and sleep with her. I wanted that she should take over all of my responsibilities. She should make food for me, wash my clothes and remain with me forever. These are unknown feelings which gripped me at that time. I never encountered such feelings before.

One day came when she gave us a test and told us that she would give a surprise gift to the topper. I didn't wanted to lose this opportunity; so, I worked very hard for the test and stood first in it. While announcing the numbers in test, she came near me and kissed on my face. For some minutes I was in sky. For me her kiss was like winning a big battle. With this my feeling for her became even stronger. Feeling of her lips touching my face were making me mad. I started dreaming to kiss her also.

One month before our exams news came that my favorite teacher is going to be married this week and she would now never attend school again. I felt like that some one had taken ground away from my feet. My dreams looked shattered in few seconds. I felt very bad about the guy who was going to marry my teacher. First time a desire to grow early and propose her arose in me. However with the passes of days everything starts coming to normal. Again I became a normal child. But definitely she was able to teach me the difference between a woman and girl.

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